yeah.

i guess the good thing about having a blog no one reads is that you can pretty much say whatever you want: i want: and it probably won’t get around too much.
also the very act of putting yourself out makes you sign up for a bit of a game. a game that i have never been good at.
on fb today someone sent me an answered question that said, do i have game? and her answer was yes.
this had a hilarious effect.
there is a kind of social game that i always pined for but never played well.
i guess i have a kind of anti social handicap, because i have left a bad impression on a lot of people. it has been cool to hate me.
and i hate this about myself. i try to compensate in other ways, but am not sure it makes any difference.
woah negative. i guess i do have proof to the opposite, :. there are people that still love me anyway.
i just wish i could cosmetically operate it away, this thing, that i cannot pin down about myself.